April 4th...
We spent Easter with my good friend Eryn and her family today. It was really nice, good food, good conversations, good everything. I had fun and the kids had fun, (or at least Cael did...Av doesn't care where she sleeps!) but I almost feel guilty. I'm sure part of Derrick (even though he might never admit it, and I wouldn't either) wasn't expecting us to "have fun" without him. And I understand that completely. I am doing my absolute best to keep myself busy and the kids entertained, for all of our sakes, but hon, if you are reading this, that doesn't mean we don't wish you were here. All I could think about today was how you would have been in heaven playing WoW with Leo, and Eryn and I would have been so pissed at you guys for spending Easter on the computer! I would have loved seeing you help the kids open their Easter baskets and rocking Averi to sleep so she didn't have to steal Sonia's swing...I just wish you had been there. And nothing is going to change, no matter how "used to it" I get, we are going to wish you were here for every single day that goes by. I know you are wishing the same things so I am going to try not to bring it up anymore...but I just want you to know that in no way, shape, or form, are we "moving on." I am just trying to make it so that all of the pictures you see have smiling faces!
We love you Derrick and we CAN'T WAIT for these next few months to fly past us!!
Golly Gee Darci how do you do it. You bring tears to my eyes as I read this. I so understand why you do the blog. I know I haven't been real "heart felt" on mine lately but it helps so much to have a blog when I need to get things out. I am amazed at how well you are doing. Keep it up!
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