Feb 16th...
I realize I have two pictures to post today, and I apologize. But the one of the reasons I am doing this, is to learn how to say out loud some of the things I am feeling. (By out loud, I mean typing...quietly...but for people to read) Tonight was not a fun night at all. Promised Cael some time at daycare, no daycare. Thought I would meet some new friends who were in my same boat, they apparently already have each other and don't need me and just assume I don't need them. Thought that I was a person too and my voice counted as much as everyone elses, it doesn't. Thought my son would be treated fairly and get a birthday cake at next months meeting, no birthday cake for him, only for the little girl with the March b-day. Thought I could make it at least two days without my husband, I can't. When Valentine's Day is only two days behind you and there is this much chocolate gone...something is very wrong.
You've had a tough day, haven't you? I'm so sorry. Seems like when we have been treated fairly most of our life & then get hit in the face it's such a shock! Especially if your child is treated poorly. It brings out the Mama Bear but you had no one at home to give you a hug & listening ear. I figure a box or two of chocolate isn't so very wrong. Not when it's only 2 days. You're a strong & resiliant woman. Tomorrow, look around for another group - or maybe the next day. Do not allow yourself to get bitter! It just makes things worse.
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This post make's me wanna cry ..... I feel the same way at those meetings though... nice outside of them.... secluded during them... i dilike it when people can't act the same no matter who there w or where they are
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